Bad mom

Its so difficult being a mom...I could never have imagined it to be such a daunting task amd a unsatisfying one. We cannot seem to get through to each other ever! Am I expecting too much...is he finding it an enormous burden?? Am I destryoing his spirit, his yet to be formed personality? What is the right balance between being a guiding force and a forcing persona? How can we measure indulgence? Where can we draw the line...how to be gentle but firm??

Every now and then

Every now and then I feel low. Every now and then I feel on top of the world. Every now and then there's a vast amount of energy coursing down my veins but also every now and then there is a void that does'nt seem even half filled. Every now and then I do feel just about okay...tranquil, pleased and fulfilled. There is a mish mash of the emotions to such an extent that its almost impossible to classify them.
Is it normal to feel this way?